I know I haven’t posted in ten days and I apologize; however, my grandmother, Nan, has been in and out of the hospital during these ten hellish days and is now in a nursing home. Everyone is telling me that she will be fine, but it is just a facade.
The truth is that she is going to pass away within the next two years, she is really frail and is suffering from congestive heart failure.
It is really hard to see her like this. My Nanny. I love her so much and I am not ready to lose her yet. I still need so much from her. This situation is extremely tough because we have to appear to be optimistic, but at the same time ready ourselves to let her go.
It is the letting go part that I am not ready for. I am not ready to lose her. Mentally she is still extremely sharp, physically she is wasting away.
I am so scared.
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